nobody cares anyway

Everyone start from themselves as a starting point. Family, friends, you - the viewpoint starts from themselves. I have fallen into the habit of seeking attention outside. Thus seeking to please you and everybody. What do I really want? I don't want to be used by some random dude of the streets anymore. I don't feel like playing this role. Sure it's hot to you, attention seeking on my end but I don't want this attention. 

As lust mounts, I don't feel your love and tenderness. It hurts. I'm grieving for the loss and I don't want to go along anymore.